Express .B.

•December 25, 2009 • Leave a Comment
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Express in my mind is gathering more speed.
Braziers spread heat and collapse.
Funnels whistle, steam wind up the northern gale.
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Cabins are filled with drunk clowns.
Facial paint on the walls.
Words written down with passionate hate.
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“Do we ever have the pleasant smile
from a child of horror and lies?.”
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The dots have fled.
Running freely on fields with deers.
Hiding inside their furcoats and secret light.
Playing hangman games between their horns.
The dots have fled from the pain and suits.
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“Do we ever have the wretched soul
playing with dolls and hide-n-seek?.”

.Ax2.

•December 25, 2009 • Leave a Comment
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Again. Again.
The lips are scarred and soft.
The face might not be my own.
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“Keep on runing, keep on running,
there’s no place like home.”
Repeating between the dead streets.
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Again. Again.
The eyelashes beat against the fingers.
They don’t know.
They…

Kings and Queens

•December 22, 2009 • Leave a Comment
We are going side by side.
Holding hands.
Shoulders embracing the warmth.
Don’t let the stars fade away.
Become who you are and be who you will never be.
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The whole day have been so strange.
So strange have been the past few weeks.
Dreams are enchanted, and painful.
Never want to wake up, and not sure if I truly have during my awake hours.
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The fields are empty, and the bird has fallen.
Single shot from lonely hunter, to fill the craving in his heart and soul.
To fill the cold spot, what was left behind, after the death of the wife.
After the feelings fled into the street full of walking corpses.
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My lips are dry.
Try to look above, into the skies.
Try, try, try. Do, do, do.
To live fully, you don’t need to fulfill
the dreams and illusions of others.
To live with full emotion,
you don’t need to betray and lie.
You don’t need to create false memories and illusions.
Don’t, don’t, don’t.
Life, death, reincarnation.
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We have grown apart and then we wander.
Why haven’t we noticed, that we have been in love with a stranger?.
And then we do understand. Hopeless and drained we feel.
The ache in our veins is false and just a small part of the jigsaw.
Yes, we keep collecting the pieces,
that the other “half” is pulling down.
And the promises, that were once made,
are all behind the horizon.
Only the Tearmaster will know,
if the rivers will be floated over or maintain the drought.
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The blind man is never dark.
The deaf ear is never silent.
The mute lips are never tranquil.
They have more than any “ideal” person.
They are whole.
Their imperfection makes them perfect.
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And we wander more, why have everyone changed so much.
Yet we are blind to the fact, that this is us, who have evolved.
Hard to accept, people move to you and pass by.
People come and go, they choose you to company on their journey
or dump beside the highway.
On these days, this is rare.
It is rare, when you will collect friendship of lifetime.
Somehow it all matters, teaches and we learn.
We want, but our desires are wrong.
Or our wantings does not match with the desires.
And then we take wrong turn on the crossroads.
And curse ourselves for being a fool.
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Hang on, we say to our partners in crime.
To our friends we promise.
And then leave everyone behind.
Lie through stupid and weak apologies.
Lie is something that makes us all weak.
Speaking the truth may hurt, but through hurt we grow stronger.
And being stronger makes us better persons.
We might survive the future.

White Lies

•December 20, 2009 • Leave a Comment
City streets are flushed over with dirt.
Cats find their corpses and take the skin on the 7th walk.
Orphan is playing monkey drums in the basement.
All the candles have died down.
The monkey is sitting in the gutter.
His hands are playing in the sea of teardrops.
Silently. The red stripes have formed theatrical circus.
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Thousand eyeballs of Loch Ness monster
canned for coming winter.
Naked harlequin rolling up the sleeves
for the ghosts, who sleep with princesses.
To collect them. To drain them.
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“Welcome to my world, sire.”
The chessman’s coat is covered with blue.
Pour out the blood, child.
Drain our the life.
Your home is over the edge.
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Gamble rambles and become free.
Who decides if you are insane or not?.
Ask from the voices in your head.
Maybe they will give you the map.
Maybe they will give you the passport and a knife.

This Road

•December 17, 2009 • Leave a Comment

And the seagulls are collecting the flesh
from the sharp bones of the sea.
Having another pair of eyes
for their oracle collection.
Another lost keys for the iron locks,
rust swallowing what’s left from the wrecks.
The sparkling soul, drowning towards the end.
Towards the abyss of paperhearts.
Fake and unreliable.

Never thought this road ends with a cliff.

Oh, Adam

•September 11, 2009 • 1 Comment

These shadows have darkened.
The winter has fallen and the King has
been killed by the first man.

Oh, Adam, why do you wish such doom
upon our clouded souls?.
Oh, Adam, who is the demon
by your side?.

We walk shoulder by shoulder.
Our hope entwined with everlasting scar.
The canticle became the holy water
to all of unborned sins.

The essence of the God
is giving a secret note trough
the light of frosted leaves.

Expostulation echoes through the freedom.
They have blinded you by their own lies.
Thine eyes bleeding within the tears.
Spread your wings, and fly into the eternity.
The love, the passion, these secret desires
you leave behind with affliction and hesitation.
Go, child, and tear yourself apart…

09//09//2009

So Sorry

•September 11, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Sorry, that I aint in kolledz or university.
Sorry, that I dropped out from school.
Sorry, that I don’t have job.
Sorry, that you pay my unpayed bills.
Sorry, that I aint perfect daughter,
working as a priest, lawyer or a vet.
Sorry, that I am constantly tired
and drowning my own fake happiness.
Sorry, that all I do is smoke and cause trouble.
Sorry, that you are tired from long day of work
and I am watching some stupid show from TV.
Sorry, that I haven’t cooked.
Sorry, that I take out the laundry,
take out the dog, wash your dishes.
Sorry, that you aint asking no help.
Sorry, that you have the job and I aint.
Sorry, that the world economy is smashed
and I am just another unemployee.
Sorry, that I have no degree in marketing.

So sorry, that you keep steping on my feelings.
So sorry, that cause of you I feel so low.
So sorry, that you have no idea,
why I cut and twist in rage.
So sorry, that your words make me turn
and wish to drop dead.
So sorry, that your tone wants me
to run away from home again.
So sorry, that I try hard to avoid
heroin, LSD and dope.
So sorry, that I avoid
of how to eat and throw up.
So sorry, that I am afraid
you end up commiting suicide
before I do.
So sorry, that you eat Xanax,
just cause I have ruined your nervs.

You shouldn’t have given me no birth,
when all I cause is hurt.
You should’ve killed me,
as you have killen me from deep inside.
All I ask is respect and hope,
but all I get
is another crack in my broken cocoon.

11//09//2009

{{ About the relationship with mother(s). }}

The Garden of Inner Sanctuary

•August 21, 2009 • Leave a Comment

The trees keep screaming in this hollow garden,
where the sun shines only once in a year.
Here is the herbaceous stonebench,
last withering lilies embraceing the pedestal.
Here is the forgotten swing attatched to the wind.
Here are the rare scraps of the malady.
& here,
these ultramelancholy memories taunt me.

The gnarled birch has pupated,
leaving its milkwhite skin into the yesterday.
Between these sore violin melodies,
it has become the crimson silence.

In this garden hide themselves these poets,
who’s hearts have grown together.
They wander on these empty highways,
calling for the retired words.

Tomorrow is the day after forever,
where the inner sanctuary collapses.
Just cause the burden is too heavy.
Just cause the slaughter has become the addiction.

21.08.2009

[[ Inspired by Nine Inch Nails album "Ghosts I-IV". ]]

Bitter Taste

•August 20, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I loved the waters bitter taste
Until someone poured sugar pearls there

Can this someone really enjoy?
When he pinches time from time
And releases the tear of heart

Perhaps helps
One tiny trick, a little bit
White coition, out-of-the-way

[[ Old. ]]

The Secret

•August 20, 2009 • 1 Comment

The secret is hidden in the eye of illusions.
Brake the evolution.
Cut it into pieces.
No regrets.
You are still breathing.

Brother,
how many wings do you need?.
[[ Just for the singing pioners ]].
Call me,
when the bloodbath is over
and show me that in the
world
there is still
left some
existence…

2006